Reality...

Well, here I am writing my first blog. idk how long i'll keep this up, but I'd like to keep up with it pretty regularly.

I am starting this blog to keep me true to MY feelings.

It was brought to my attention full force in 2010 that i was TOO NICE. My entire life my father always told "be nice Sara, that's all you have to do is be nice" and as much as I understand where he was coming from boy did those 2 words get me into trouble in life.

Too often i'm giving people the benefit of the doubt and continually being taken advantage of. I give even when I have nothing left to give. Now while this is a good quality it's also a very bad quality. It has caused me pain in many ways in my life.

2011 has brought on a new attitude. I refer to it as my "inner bitch." I'm not one to let someone attack me and walk all over me but unless there's huge confrontation I try and find the silver lining and keep telling myself  "oh they didn't mean it like that." well, not anymore. It's time to stand up for myself and for once I could really careless if you like me or hate me.

I am me. That is all I know how to be. I am Tommy's wife. I am Tommy & Sophia's mother.

So be ready. If you feel like reading go ahead. But from here on out it's MY feelings i'm going to think about and MY life that i'll worry about taking care of. Take it or leave it. This is me.